La Man's life

Been awhile

2008-11-13T02:05:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile since the last time i post. I'm still lazy to write anything actually. But i couldn't sleep!! Now its like 4am and i'm gonna have my LAST paper at 11.15am later. I've no idea why but i guess i'll just blog about some things to kill time.

Nothing much to update. To all e overly concern friends back in sg, I'm STILL Single. Thank you for your concern. :) Its not about me finding a gf, its about 2 person finding each other and falling in love. So i'm not rushing. :)

Went to Melbourne for 1 weekend with SJ. REALLY quite a nice city i must say. Plan to visit again WHEN i got the money with the special someone(If i found).

"Travel buddy"

"Nice graffiti"

"Chariot"

"Punkster playing chess?"

I just hope the paper will be alright. Quickly finish it!! haha~ okay. I'll try to sleep again. Till next time!

不愛 Forever

2008-10-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

快阻止時間倒轉
當我們再次遇見
這樣的表情最適合隱瞞
我依然愛你很深

別再多看我一眼
別試探我真的感覺
我怕認不出又會重眷戀
你連背影都溫柔

不愛就轉身離開
一個人把回憶推翻
不愛 FOR THE LOVE 未來
你和我的信任我也不回來

不容陶揹`前伴
誤解了別離的悲
不可能送來這遺憾的愛
我們都真實對白

不愛就這麼離開
一個人被寂寞煎伴
不愛只守著被愛
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 不能說出來

不愛就轉身離開
一個人我學會忍耐
不愛去那找被愛
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 微笑著離開
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 就這樣不愛

Ops Fraser Trek (AAR)

2008-07-17T15:41:00.008+08:00

"Final Inspection"

"All packed and ready!"

"At the Assembly Area. Rainbow Beach!!"

"Last minute equipment check"

"On the barge crossing over to Fraser Island"

"Mainland Australia, Fraser Island here we come!"

"Here we go again, same old shit again"

"Still a long way to go..."

"One of the campsite. Setting up shop"

"All done! Settling in for the night (full of mosquito -_-)"
"Essential Equipment - Beer (LOL)"

"Chef Lee preparing dinner"

"Dinner is served!"

"Lake Mckenzie. Beautiful beach with nice refreshing(freezing) water"

"New friend found!! Dr Oscar from Spain (Apologise for blur photo)"

"Beautiful Night with a beautiful moon brightening up the night sky!"

"Lights off! Daniel, what are you doing taking our pictures at night!"

"Taking a break. Long way to go!"

"Tired..."

"Follow the 'CRT' marking"

"Beach driving on a 4WD!! (Pacific Ocean on the background)"

"Waiting for the barge to come pick us up. Its raining and freezing cold!!"

Operation Fraser Trek

2008-07-03T23:33:00.004+08:00

-(UN)RESTRICTED-

OPS FRASER TREK

3 man 6 days 90kms

COMING SOON

-(UN)RESTRICTED-

Feeling Alive

2008-07-01T13:30:00.002+08:00

Now that examinations are over. Life suddenly slows down for me. Nothing much to do, really. Everyday just slack around the house, watch some dramas, go for a jog, chauffeuring friends to and from the airport as most of them are going for a holiday around Australia. Life seems so peaceful and relax, yet un-purposeful. I need to feel alive again. I need to find my purpose, i need to get some adrenalin back into my system.

Results will be out later. After which my focus will be on my last semester. I MUST make it.

Focus

2008-06-13T00:25:00.001+08:00

"How much do you want it?"

"Every challenge is a test from God. It trains you to be a better person"

"Just one more week...."

Too slack to be true...

2008-05-05T21:46:00.005+08:00

Just finished reading a story book. Hai~ couldn't get myself to do any work the whole of this weekend. Friday went to watch Ironman. Saturday, played Civilization IV the whole day. Sunday, went to City. Same for today...ended the day reading the book Bravo Two Zero. hai~ What am i doing?? I need to get my motivation back.

Last week, we just decided (at the very last moment) to go on a road trip to Sydney due to long weekend(Friday is ANZAC Day). Its a nice trip driving along the country side. Lots of cows... horses... mountains... beaches... Great weekend i must say. And i thought after this short 3 days break i can get myself to start working. I was wrong. *sigh*

"GPS really made our trip an easier one"

"Stopping by this town enroute to Sydney. They were having the ANZAC Day Service"

"Coffs Harbour. This looks like a place where the dogs shit?"

"On the night we reached Sydney. Can't miss the Night scene there!"

"Day 2 - (Near) Darling Harbour"

"Country road.... take me home....."

"Wee.....!!!!"

restless

2008-04-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

Feeling so restless this few days. My Mid Semester papers are over and the results are out. Hmm.. Some are good and some i did fairly. Anyway its over.... Can't believe that now i have time, and i'm slacking. Before this i totally have no time at all!! And i'm rushing all my work like everyday. I SHOULD BE REVISING! OMG~ I need some adrenalin...

Completed my 2nd half marathon. Running in Brisbane definitely feels better as compared to running in Singapore. I ran and ran non stop la! lol~ Good timing too. 2.04hrs. Okay i can be faster i know, but my leg can't keep up with my desire to run faster. So... ya~ And the aftermath? My left feet hurts(again). And mind you, its definitely not muscle aching. I guess i over strain my feet like the last time i ran 21km. The problem is, the last time i can look for chinese sinseh back in SG. Here in Brisbane? hai~ i can only hope that it recovers.... soon. I hate limping to and from school la. Cos i have to climb a hill to reach home!! Darn it~ SJ's deep heat is not heating at all la. Feels more cooling when i apply it. Help......

"determined"

I must remain focus...but it feels like i'm slowly drifting off it. argh..... help la.....

deja vu

2008-03-31T18:43:00.001+08:00

I hate to admit it, but this seems so familiar its sickeningly painful. Its just a matter of time i guess....

Risk Taker

2008-03-31T13:38:00.001+08:00

I'm not exactly a risk taker. I like to analyst things carefully before making any decision. Whether is it during work or outside of work. In the past, my friends says that i always tend to think too much. Over analyst things...Thats why i decided to change.

"A good plan is better to be executed at the opportune time, then to wait for a best plan but missed that golden opportunity."

I still like to analyst things now(thats a trade of a virgo huh?). But i'm more willing to take calculated risk. That comes with another issue, once i've decided on something, i tend to be stubborn about my decision. Which is good! To stick to my goal and work hard towards it despite the challenges ahead. But i guess sometimes i lack the flexibility to change with the situation. In the army, i'll train my decision making skills by making quick and accurate decision base on the situation presented in front of me. As for my personal life, i'd probably "lost" the plot for a few weeks. My thoughts will be clouded with all sorts of things....and i'll be like a clam, hiding myself inside the safety of my shell.

Well.. thats just some thoughts i wish to share. Tomorrow got a paper. Need to pia again. Many more decisions for me to make.. many more challenges for me to conquer. Reaching the breaking point....

Treading carefully

2008-03-28T10:06:00.004+08:00

I brought my men hastily into the jungle and towards our objective. Along the way, we were harassed by enemy FO who calls in precise artillery onto our position. We detoured from our ROA.

Suddenly, an explosion. Unknowingly, we've step into a minefield. I've fallen into the enemy's trap. I'm distracted and disorientated and this is the situation in front of me now. There's no turning back. No amount of apologise or "what if" can save me. I'll just have to tread carefully...

"All it takes is 1 wrong step"

Apologetic

2008-03-27T21:38:00.003+08:00

"A new beginning"

When the sun sets today, it will rise tomorrow. The beginning of a new day brings about renewed hopes and dreams! Its all these hopes and dreams that fueled our desire to live on.

I'm a bit out of sort lately. Apologise to all! I'm going to "start" this semester again. Cheers to 7! *smile*

Reflecting

2008-03-17T07:34:00.004+08:00

Three weeks has past since school reopen. And i haven't been doing a lot to catch up with lectures!! With the mid semester exams just around the corner, i'm feeling the pressure.

Too many things have been going through my head recently. Reflected, and emerge a more determined person. Just hope things will be back to normal... soon.

Went to Byron Bay to take my mind off all the things thats troubling me... definitely a tiring drive to and fro, but its worth the effort.

"Most easterly part of Australia... well not exactly"

"Beautiful sunrise..."

"Lighthouse"

"Introducing.... the SUN!"

"Country road.... take me home...."

"Quiet little town...."

Mental Block

2008-03-03T07:33:00.002+08:00

Haven't been feeling very happy these few days. No idea why actually...Wanted to vent my frustrations but have no idea how to. Everything just seems to "stuck" somewhere in my brain i don't know how to let it out.

Feeling "depressed"

Steamboat pics

2008-03-01T11:23:00.003+08:00

As promised...

"Happy faces before start"

"KAI GUO LO!!"

"Serious people at work"

"All happy faces"

"After dinner activity 1: Mahjong"
"Gambling!""Chit Chatting""Late comers sucks!"

Recap of my holiday in SG

2008-02-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging since i came back. There's nothing much to blog about actually. Well, due to the fact the ppl has been complaining for my lack of effort(i didn't know my blog actually have readers?), i decided to blog down the updates since i step foot on Singapore last November.

I was posted to 7SIB at Bedok Camp. A lot of things has changed. Mainly the people around. Have been working on NDP for 2008. Its a good working environment. My S2 is a really down to earth type of guy. Can do means can do, cannot means cannot. He will not expect you to do the impossible. If something is beyond our limit, he will lead by example and guide us along. A Ranger worth respecting. *smile*

"Meeting has been a part of my work since i came back"

Met many new friends this holiday!! Didn't know why suddenly my poly classmates are so "ON" in clubbing/drinking. Have been clubbing/drinking like 4 times since i came back. Well its not a lot by many people's standard, but if you know me well enough, you'd know that i'm not a clubber/drinker. I have only club twice before this 4 times!

"New Year Countdown clubbing at St james"

"Double O's drinks are CHEAP!"

"James' (aka Jamie) birthday at RSYC"

"Many Many drinks..."

Tomorrow going for a 3 days first aid course. A requirement by UQ for engineering student to get it. Saturday will be my last main gathering. I'm organising a steamboat session at my house. Will post more photos of that session soon.

Next semester i'm going to overload my subjects. 4 subjects plus 1 thesis project. Actually i still haven't made my mind. I'm still having doubts of my ability. Argh~ how? I'm scare..... I HAVE TO MAKE IT!! But no one dares to encourage me... LOL~

Okay, will update soon. Happy Valentine's Day People!!! For those who doesn't have a valentine yet, Happy Friendship day!!! *smile*

新不了情

2008-01-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

Fell in love with this song.... Enjoy

Last paper... finally!

2007-11-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

Well..... my last paper has finally ended. But i don't feel as relieved as i felt last semester. Last semester, after finishing my last paper, i was really looking forward to the skiing trip with lam. Furthermore its winter! The weather is so nice(though cold at times). And the best thing is, i felt that i've done my best for all my papers. And indeed, my results last semester wasn't bad at all!

But this semester, despite the fact that i need to re-enroll in some subjects and settle my troubles with the advance credit and all, i felt motivated to study. Even though i missed 2 weeks of lessons for most of my subjects, i put in extra effort to catch up with everybody. But sadly, out of the 4 examinable subjects that i took this semester, i am not very happy with 3.

My POWER, i took great effort to study the concept and theories and all. I am especially interested in this subject actually.... but not only did i not do well for my mid semester, i've got a BIG careless mistake for my final exam!!! I can't believe i've forgotten to do tt step!

Math. This paper i'm not worried about failing. More like i wanted to score well. Put in so much effort to practice, practice and practice... and due to time constraint i do not have time to check through my workings. And guess what, careless mistake again. I know the answer but why did i write wrongly?! How the hell did i managed to do tt?!

STATS!!! this is crazy!! Just before today's paper, i still have yet to received my assignments marks. And the worse thing is, my friend found out that the lecturer actually did not received his assignment thats why he did not received his marks. So he send a soft copy of it to the lecturer and he got his marks immediately. But i couldn't get hold of my lecturer. I've tried sending a few emails to him but have yet to receive a reply. Weekend is here and i'm going back sg on monday. How?!?!?!! Then comes the exam, normally you'd think that in a exam, there will be a few questions where everybody would be able to do and a few questions to single out the distinction students right? WRONG!!! Out of the 5 questions, everyone i know only manage to do 1 qn!! All the questions are unfamiliar to us at all! Never seen it before, not to mention doing it before. Is it fair for the lecturer to do this kind of thing?!

Sigh, in conclusion... this semester makes me feel sad. And i was still in a confident mood before the exam starts. Really didn't expect things to turn out like these......

This is WAR!!

2007-10-29T17:33:00.001+08:00

Ready for WAR!

Went to school to study. Then follow up with grocery shopping. Opps... looks more like tibits shopping. LOL~ Always Ready!! Ready to MUG!! *smile*

Sashiburi

2007-10-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

Sashiburi! Its been a while since i blog. Alright, now for the updates. I've finally won my case against the university!! Now i am no longer required to study 3 yrs to graduate. I've managed to cut that down to 2 yrs. Yeah!! Which means, after this semester, i only left with 1 more year!! But the bad news is, that next year i couldn't spread my load. I'd have to take a lot of tough subjects as i've already cleared the easy ones in the first year. Sigh~ If i'm given a choice i wouldn't have liked to plan it properly. More hard work to come!!

Now, exam is coming. Was studying but tot i should just update my blog. Can't wait to go back to Singapore actually. Earn some money and hopefully next year i can go Melbourne. Still need to do my thesis and all.... though. Ah well...... Fight Fight Fight!! For those who is in the same predicament as me, lets fight together!! When the going gets tough, its up to you to show yourself that you are tougher!!

Selamat hari ulang tahun ke aku

2007-09-02T22:12:00.001+08:00

First of all, i'd like to thank those of you who've managed to remember my birthday. "Well Done!" hahahaha~ Well well well, what do i have to update? Basically things have been very monotonous for the past few weeks. So there's actually nothing much to blog about.

Days have been spend studying, cooking(yes i am learning to cook), watching dramas/animes and sleeping. Well most of the time i'm slacking actually. Mid-Semester break is coming soon, that means mid-semester exams will be here too. Need to mug, do report, work on my project and study. Sigh~

Anyway, would like to comment on my NEW housemates for their effort! *applause* Thanks for celebrating my birthday with me. As usual, my birthday has been a very quiet affair. I don't like to make it big or anything. Thanks mom for making the effort to call me during midnight(Brisbane time) to wish me happy birthday.

"YL made this cake at the very last min, looks okay but taste great!"

"Lucia Lodge Unit 1 residence!! haha~ Everybody looked so 'unglam' at home"

"Cutting the cake (Notice my messy bedroom at the background)"

I've been tagged!!

2007-08-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

i have been tagged by Zaryl.

Rules of the game:
Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about themselves. People who get tagged must write in a blog entry of their own list of 10 weird things or habits or little known facts, as well as state this rule clearly. At the end of this, you must tag 6 people and list their names. No tagbacks!

Here goes...

1. I'm a good actor. You'll never know what I'm actually thinking unless i decided to let you know.

2. I'm slightly overweight even though i may look fit.

3. I go for a jog occasionally to freshen up myself.

4. Eric is not a name given by my parents. 玉盛 is.

5. I've a weak stomach. I get diarrhea easily especially if i drink a lot of milk in 1 day.

6. I am able to place both my legs around my neck. But i didn't learn yoga.

7. I enjoy sports, but given a choice I'd rather stay at home and sleep.

8. I sign on because i wanted to experience combat. But i don't wanna die young.

9. I "stoned" frequently.

10. I bit my nails when I'm stress.

And...

The lucky 6 pple i tag:

1) Michelle
2) Karen
3) Winnie
4) Eric Low
5) Alex
6) Shijian

Semester 2.... BEGINS!

2007-08-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

My semester 2 finally begins. So many things happened!! And I thought missing week 1 of class is bad enough. sigh~

Met my academic adviser last Wednesday. Was suppose to request for more credit from him, instead i accidentally found out that the credit given to me last semester was wrong!! I have 16 credit, but i was told that i am supposed to be given 32 credit. This means that I'm suppose to be able to complete my studies in 2 years instead of 3.

Sigh~ Because of these, i have to re-enroll again. Change all the year 2 modules i have previously enrolled in to take this semester to year 3 modules. And that effectively means that i have missed 2 weeks of lecture. Then have to take this Team Project module. Next week need to hand in 1 report already, but i still haven't got to know who is my team mates yet. Hai~ Hopefully things will be better soon.

光良 - 约定

2007-07-17T14:27:00.000+08:00

说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验
我们的约定

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
它也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想它会告诉你的
我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
它也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想它会告诉你的

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
它也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
迎着风我也笑了
它一定会告诉你的
我更爱你了

07/07/07 Seven years of friendship

2007-07-11T12:13:00.000+08:00

I have wonderful classmates!!! Went "steamboating" at JY's place on this special day. I can't believe our friendship can last that long!! I felt so blessed to have you guys and girls in my class. Though not everyone manage to attend the gathering due to work and other commitments, but its the thought that counts. =)

"GY, the ladies man"

"Not full strength - Ready to dig in"

"What a spread!!"

"And the cake"

I'm back

2007-07-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

I'm back! Touched down yesterday night at Singapore's Changi International Airport. So tiring!! Took a 6 hours bus ride from Snowy Mountains back to Central Station, Sydney. Decided to save money so went straight to the airport intending to find a place to sleep for the night. Didn't expect that both the international and domestic airport in Sydney doesn't operate for 24 hrs. Luckily for LAM and me, we manage to find a place inside the airport to sleep in. Woke up at 5.30am yesterday for breakfast before catching our flight back to Brisbane. Went home to pack my stuff before heading back to the airport to catch my flight back to SG. fWah!! Almost "die-ed".

Anyway, went skiing with LAM. Lucky for him, i think he really improved a lot. But for me, i sprained my leg and was rule out of action for most of my time there. It snowed!! Wow~ Really very nice but super cold!! Anyway, good experience. I'm definitely going to ski again! *angry*

"Ready for some action"

"My swollen right ankle"

"Up the liftchair"

"Its snowing!!"

伍佰 - 牵挂

2007-07-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

牵掛著你是那颗我的心 飘呀飘地在你面前捉模不定

牵掛著你是那份我的情 吹呀吹到你的眼前我的心

我不愿看到你那湿润的眼睛 怕我会忍不住疼你怕你伤心

我不愿听见你说寂寞的声音 怕我会忍不住对你说我的真 感情

牵掛著你是那双我的手 越过你的长髮越过你心窝

牵掛著你是那份我的温柔 飞过你的肩膀飞过你的手

我不愿看见你独自离去的身影 怕我会忍不住牵你手将你带走

我不愿看到你依依不捨的表情 怕我会忍不住再停留怕妳难过

你像盛开花朵绽放整个天空  温暖著我将我拥抱在你的怀中

不愿承认是我最深情的脆弱  能否与你一生守候

你像盛开花朵绽放整个天空  温暖著我将我拥抱在你的怀中

不愿承认是我最深情的脆弱  悲伤的我从此漂流

捨不得你是那颗我的心  飘呀飘地在你面前捉模不定

捨不得你是那份我的情  而徘徊在你面前属於你的我

爱你...

Random Updates

2007-06-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

I've been spending way over budget since the semester ends. Going to Sydney, eating out more frequently, went shopping. I'm just bored.. and lonely.

Went Gold Coast shopping last weekend. Drove a car over, wow~ lucky e car can last the long distance. I didn't expect myself to spend over A$200 shopping! LOL~ YT lar~ psycho me. haha kidding~ Bought my first pair of levis jeans, a "bubble wrap" jacket (if i nv get the name wrongly), a wallet and a pair of Replay shoes. First time in my life i spend so much on shopping in a single day. hahaa~

The next day i went shopping with Eric. I'm not trying to be cheeky here, Eric is a friend i met here. Bought 2 new books to keep me occupied when i'm bored. Oh! and i bought a new sweater today! *smile* quite nice but ZHU say difficult to match clothes. sigh.... Wanna buy an Addidas beanie! but A$25 lei.... don't know want to buy or not..... hahahahaha~ i have to control!! spending more and more each day.

Days have been spend with my laptop everyday. Argh~ i'm going mad. Everyday watch Prison break, and chat with ZHU online. help please... LOL~ I just hope days pass by faster so that i can finally ski... and go back Singapore. Eric is going to Melbourne tmr. Sian ar... 1 less guy to accompany me. Its just too cold to run outside too. Am getting fat~ Fantasized going back to Army to chiong with my platoon. hahahaha~ i'm just crazy eh?

Oh~ Am also trying to get more credit for my course. But things ain't looking good. Don't think i can get more credit than what i already have. But will try. The modules for year 3 and 4 is gonna be tough. Heard from Seniors.... argh... i just hope all these will be over soon. 2.5 yrs.... i really don't know man. So many things have already happened in a short span of half a year. Set backs...... for me. Sigh... When a door shuts behind me, a new door opens in front of me.. is it true? Why do i feel like whacking the the shut door behind me down? I have to move on....

眷恋 - F.I.R

2007-06-23T15:54:00.000+08:00

把爱深埋在记忆中
说不出口一种难过
给祝福太多不能覆盖我的痛
你要转身你要走不再多作停留

分开是谁说没什么
最难的决定是放手
眼中的落寞说的都是我的错
当你笑着挥挥手你的沉默我懂

请别说爱我推我向晴天
最温暖的天空却换了季节
在绝望的面前洒落一地心碎
就算是伤悲我不想太狼狈

请别说爱我别许下心愿
下一秒就出现你给的纪念
风吹过的思念曾有过的眷恋
哭红了双眼再让我心痛一天

Finally its over....

2007-06-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

Finished my last paper yesterday night. Finally~ Kind of relief but not exactly drained. Did my indonesian paper. Then electrical, math and finally digital. And to my surprise i only spend like a few hours studying for my digital paper. Maybe its because i did e exact same module in poly before. Though e focus is different, there's more prac work here as compared to SP. I guess e theory i learn in SP did help a lot so it actually makes it easier for me to grasp e concept here.

Have just finished reading "da vinci code" and currently reading "One bullet Away, the making of a marine officer". Suddenly have this craze for reading. I don't usually read as most of you would know. I'm not a reader, even in uni, i would rather the lecturer explain to me than to read the information myself. I guess i can grasp the concept better these way. But i started reading more and more since coming to aussie. Maybe its because i have more spare time doing nothing here. In sg, i could ask people out for supper at night when i have nothing to do but there's nothing i can do here during e night except probably watch anime, chat with friends online or sleep.

The book is a good read for people like me. If you get what i mean. The author is a marine infantry officer. I feel that he is very much like me. Certainly not someone who thrive on killing people. But more like someone who'd go out of his way to take care of his men. Taking care of his men physically and mentally. He joined the marine corps on his own accord and was part of the Afghanistan mission and Iraq mission. I don't really care about the political effect of this two mission, to me as a PC reading another PC's account of his experience in these 2 missions really interest me. Its like going into war in my mind. Experiencing what he experienced but not actually being there in the danger itself. Many things that he did was what i was trained for. But reflecting on my own PC tour, i guess i didn't really do a very good job in preparing my platoon as well as i should if we go to war. Well i don't think sg will go to war anyway. =)

Gonna spend 2 weeks doing nothing here in Brisbane. And its getting ridiculously cold lar!! When e wind blows, my jacket seems to be like a normal t-shirt. Need to wear more jacket to keep myself warm. Was supposed to fly back to sg on the 25th june but lam persuaded me to go to learn skiing with him. Since skiing was the number 1 thing i promised myself to try when i'm in aussie before i come over here to study, i decided to give it a go. See you guys when i'm back in july!!

Introverted, Sensing, Thinking, Judging

2007-06-11T10:04:00.000+08:00

ISTJs are often called inspectors. They have a keen sense of right and wrong, especially in their area of interest and/or responsibility. They are noted for devotion to duty. Punctuality is a watchword of the ISTJ. The secretary, clerk, or business(wo)man by whom others set their clocks is likely to be an ISTJ.

These quiet, no-nonsense Guardians have a distaste for and distrust of fanciness in speech, dress, and living space. Their words tend to be simple and down-to-earth, not showy or high-flown; their clothes are often homespun and conservative rather than of the latest fashion; and their home and work environments are usually neat, orderly, and traditional, rather than up-to-date or luxurious. In their choice of personal property (cars, furnishings, jewelry, and so on) price and durability are just as important as comfort or appearance. Classics, antiques, and heirlooms are especially valued, having achieved a certain time-honored status-Inspectors prefer the old-fashioned to the newfangled every time. Even on vacation, Inspectors tend not to be attracted by exotic foods, beverages, or locales.

As do other Introverted Thinkers, ISTJs often give the initial impression of being aloof and perhaps somewhat cold. Effusive expression of emotional warmth is not something that ISTJs do without considerable energy loss.

ISTJs are most at home with "just the facts, Ma'am." They seem to perform at highest efficiency when employing a step-by-step approach. Once a new procedure has proven itself (i.e., has been shown "to work,") the ISTJ can be depended upon to carry it through, even at the expense of their own health.

ISTJs are easily frustrated by the inconsistencies of others, especially when the second parties don't keep their commitments. But they usually keep their feelings to themselves unless they are asked. And when asked, they don't mince words. Truth wins out over tact. The grim determination of the ISTJ vindicates itself in officiation of sports events, judiciary functions, or an other situation which requires making tough calls and sticking to them.

The idea of dishonoring a contract also bothers an Inspector -their word is their bond-and they naturally communicate a message of trustworthiness and stability, which can make them successful in business. With their eye for detail, Inspectors make good business men and women, librarians, dentists, optometrists, legal secretaries, and law researchers. High school and college teachers of business administration, home economics, physical education, civics, and history tend to be Inspectors, as do quartermaster officers in the military.

His SJ orientation draws the ISTJ into the service of established institutions. Home, social clubs, government, schools, the military, churches -- these are the bastions of the SJ. "We've always done it this way" is often reason enough for many ISTJs. Threats to time-honored traditions or established organizations (e.g., a "run" on the bank) are the undoing of SJs, and are to be fought at all costs.

When our path crossed...

2007-06-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wonder if you have ever made an impact on someone else's life before? I have. When i was young, i used to cry whenever i was reminded of the fact that i'm gonna leave these world sooner or later. But when i grow older, tears dried up and i started to wonder why am i so afraid of something that i have no control of.

These thoughts started my quest to make an impact on people's life. In doing so, i shake away the old "Yue Seng" and became the new "Eric" in the eyes of my friends. I even decides to sign on so that i could reach out to more people. Not only restricting to the people under my command, but also, hopefully being in the Guards Formation will give me a chance someday to go out for peace keeping operations in other countries. It seems to me that, being able to make someone smile will eventually make the world a happier place to live in. Well... i guess i'm just happy to be the "Mr Nice Guy" that everyone knows.

Maybe... just maybe when its my time to go... there will be tonnes of people queuing up to give their testimony about me. And that i'll be missed by those people closes to me.

Sydney Trip

2007-06-06T08:12:00.000+08:00

Back from Sydney. The trip was a worthwhile trip as i manage to spend within my budget and visit lots of places!! KB you should have come over man... then CCK gang can be reunioned!! haha~ i'll let the pictures do e talking...

Arrival

Central Station, Sydney

Searching for them at the station.

Day 1

After a slow start in the morning, we headed off to Paddington market as it only opens during the weekend. There's lots of nice accessories and clothings for ladies. But none for guys. Sigh~

KB where are you?

Paddington market

Wide variety of souvenirs

Sunny day at Sydney

Met a very nice uncle who gave us direction to this famous "lu bian tan" which sells very nice pies!!

Enroute to Harry's Pie

"tan chi gui"

Cooling grass great for picnic

"zhi pai san ren zhu"

Art Gallery of NSW

Headed to St Mary's Cathedral to meet up with Marcus. The interior of the Church is super nice!! Unfortunately we couldn't take photographs of the interior that night.

St Mary's Cathedral

Darling Harbour

Day 2

Reveille

Gorilla family

The Star of the day!! Sleeping... -_-zZz

SY and me

Marcus and Alex

Majestic Cruise! Alex and SY

Sydney's Harbour Bridge

Sydney's Opera House

Aboriginal playing their "techno song"

Tower of Sydney

Now we need to build a taller tower in SG and place a working post box up there.

Sydney's Aquarium

Day 3

In deep thoughts

Blue mountain here we come!

Breathtaking

Back to the nature

The Three Sisters

The guys

World Steepest train service

Day 4

Bronte Beach

A good place to retire

Picnic at the beach

I'm surrounded

Enjoying the sea breeze

SMU poster?

Brondi Beach

Sydney's train service

Departure

Was left alone in the airport as i'm taking Virgin Blue and they are taking Qantas. Nevertheless its a trip i never regret going.

Bored alone

Bought Krispy Kremes for YT and house mate

Virgin Blue

Well going to go back to study if not i may eventually regret going to Sydney. LOL~

WheEEe!!!

2007-05-30T18:21:00.000+08:00

I'm going Sydney!! haha~ so thats e thing that kept me up last night? LOL Finally made my decision to go on this ad-hoc trip. Decided last minute. I suck at making decision for myself man. haha~ Made me lost some sleep. And yet i do so well in making decision for other people. Tough decision to call but yeah.....will be back with photos to share!! Stay tune.....

Couldn't sleep...

2007-05-30T04:09:00.000+08:00

Sigh... i couldn't sleep. Now is like 7am in e morning... and i'm still wide awake. Seems like something is about to happen/is already happening/have happened and i'm waiting for it to reveal itself to me. Whether is it a good or bad thing, i hope that i would know...soon. The birds are chirping and the sky is getting brighter. Don't know what to blog about.. just gonna say anything that comes to mind.

Don't know what's gotten into me... Felt so weird nowadays. Chat with PQ online just now. Through our conversation, kind of made me realised that i don't really know myself very well. I couldn't comprehend my own behaviour, the things i say and the things i do. Sigh~

YT and her always says that i have a sleepy face. For the record, this is e first time someone ever made that comment on me. hMm... or is it? Think ZL and Mich did ask why i always looks so tired before. I've always keep things to myself thats for sure! I don't want, and don't like to be a burden to others. So can't expect me to become "yang guang nan hai" with a blink of an eye right? =)

Next week is the beginning of study week, and i haven't study yet. LOL~ Okay la i did some revision on my math. Later don't even know whether there is any tutorial class or not. I don't deserve a break yet, but i'm very eager to try many things i don't dare to try before. I should learn to be MORE independent, it will come in handy when i grow older. :p

Okay i'll try to sleep again.

nice.....

2007-05-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

孫燕姿害怕 LYRICS

作詞：深白色作曲：深白色

忘我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長
想我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強
堅強到不用學著不想
學著遺忘
還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
還是害怕不經意的聽聽見你的消息
然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
當擁有已經是失去
就勇敢的放棄
還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
然而當愛最後的出口是分離
我會這麼相信走下去

The missing piece

2007-05-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

I'm still learning, the things that I've yet to know...

still looking, the things that I've yet to find...

still exploring, the things that I've yet to try...

and still searching, for the missing puzzle that has been missing from my life.

How true?

2007-05-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

VIRGO MAN
Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. He hates to hear criticism and hates to be criticize. If he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing , and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is
a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks it can improve himself. He is the type who well adjusted to make changes.

He will spent money carefully and spent it worthwhile. He will only
extravagant for his personnel pleasure only. He is quite romantic, a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he does not care about you, he will not even spent a dime to call you locally. Long distant special low rate call is also out of the question.

You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will belief him. He is a hard to please when it comes to what to eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He always neat and tidy all the times, even if he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy people. He always act like a boring mature adults, but getting to know him, you will know he has his own charm.

He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritate with rudeness, ignorant, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see a guy in this Zodiac dress up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciously he will touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket.

People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. Any favor asked , he will help but always in his own limit. The more he see faults in others, the less he wants people to see his. If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take it as an insult.

He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. Woman's trick will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her friends and her environments too. He is very picky and every breaking up, he will be double careful next time.

He can sweep woman with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship like a friend. He likes a sincere self confident woman, neat and clean, perfect and tidy. A real two "P" , picky and perfectionist Zodiac.

The gang!!

2007-05-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

"That's us! A group of strangers brought together by passion and a little fate"

On my departure day...A little late in posting this picture up. But some things is better to be late than never.... *smile*
P.S: note that lam is not in the picture as he is my advance party... LOL

looking forward to our usual gatherings......

Initial D.... renactment

2007-05-12T13:33:00.000+08:00

"Diary of Fujiwara Takumi....

Last night, i went to Mt Akina (Mt Cootha) as usual to deliver my "TOFU". On my journey home, some beng challenges me on a downhill race to the bottom of the mountain. And it turns out that he's driving a WRX. Feeling confident of my driving skills, i took up the challenge despite the fact that i'm driving an AE86 (Mazda 323).

I began to increase my speed. Driving into corners like nobody's business... i sped down the mountain as fast as i could. But despite my best effort....the WRX not only overtook me with great ease, he also pull away from me. Feeling frustrated, i kept stepping on my acceleration hoping to catch a glimpse of his car. Suddenly the engine blew up and this is the end state of my car."

"The aftermath of the race"

haha~ for those of you reading this, no i didn't race with LAM down Mt Cootha. But yes i did went Mt Cootha last night for the first time to enjoy the beautiful scenery and TA DA!!! The car is on the back of the tow truck. The clutch disk gave way e next morning when my friend drives to work but no worries, he will be asking the previous owner to sort it out!! If not i've got ENGINEER friend over here, will be asking him to get ready explosive so tt we could conduct platoon ambush live firing on the previous owner while he is on his way home from work. *evil laugh*

The good old days...

2007-05-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

"Getting the parade ready"

"Handing over e parade"

This morning i received an email from a student from my old school inviting ex-npcc student back for reunion. Visited their blog and saw many old photographs... photographs that holds many precious memory that i had. Photographs of my past.... Though the photos posted was not comprehensive... (I guess they might have lost majority of them) But what impresses me the most is that they manage to track back all those key appointment holder's name and post them up on the blog as well!! Shows that they did make an effort.

Posted 2 photos of myself during sec 5 (didn't know i was so smart in uniform last time.. haha! BHB) This parade was one hell of a parade that i've ever organised before! Chairman NPCC was visiting my school's cca recruitment day. To impress the coming guests, and of cos the young sec ones and their parents, i spend weeks planning and training the G.O.H. Looking at the picture, i'm so glad i can still put names into most of the faces that appears on it! They are the one that have given me their fullest support for this parade. (considering the fact that the G.O.H was formed by my juniors, my peers and also my senior) I'm really glad that they didn't mind being instructed by me for so many weeks without complain. Well maybe they did complain but i didn't know. =)

Unfortunately i'm far away in Australia studying. Till next time... hopefully i will be able to make it back to the reunion!!

UFO spotted! Beware...

2007-05-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

"UFO?"

Don't worry... UFO has not been spotted in Brisbane. Was walking to my friend's place for dinner just now and saw the moon and the stars! Its been sometime since i saw such a lovely sight. Unfortunately my phone's camera didn't do any justice to the beautiful sight in front of me. Thus ended up looking like UFO. LOL~

The weather is getting cooler now. I love it during the night. I love the night when the cold wind brushes past my face. I love it here as the streets is not as brightly lit as in Singapore. Makes the whole atmosphere even better when the moon is lovely with lotsa stars accompanying her.

One month's time to final exam. one month's time and i'll be back. Things happen and now i'm worried for my Math mid semester exam result. *crossed fingers* hope i can make it. Electrical is getting tougher too... *worried* well... just gonna work hard. gambatte yo!! Ric kun... =)

Alex, sy and markie are coming over!! But not at a good time thou. Just right kena my exam period. Well.... hopefully e exam time table will be out soon so i could make plans. Who knows i can join them to sunshine coast and gold coast?

I'm seriously considering buying a car. How? Confuse mind.....pros and cons......can i handle it?

Doubts... on myself...

2007-05-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

Stumble upon 1 of HQ's note he left for me after D01's IPC. Thinking back on my past, and looking at who i am now. It sure looks like i have gain a lot in terms of overcoming my own personal limits and boundaries. But, are these things really what i wanted?

Just want to cherish every moment i have in my life. To do the things that i really wanted to do. To be with the people i really liked to be with. But sometimes it seems impossible. Is it because I'm simple minded, no one takes me seriously?

The feeling of not being recognized after putting in so much effort, surely sucks.... But i'm not someone who would give up easily. Or am i just afraid that i would regret it in the future if i give up now?

Chance, something that people wants to have but yet unwilling to give away. I especially hated it when people give me a chance because they pity me. Made me felt so useless... I have enough people looking down on me in the past... i don't need anymore people to do that now.

Keep the faith...

2007-04-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

"Faith is not about having the right answers, faith is just a feeling or a hunch.
When you do something to connect to that feeling, is an act of faith."

Stumble upon this quote recently. Suddenly seems like this sentence answer a lot of my questions to myself. Felt that its really meaningful so i'm sharing it here.

fairness....so important?

2007-03-31T22:48:00.000+08:00

Didn't wanted to blog actually. Just don't know why got a little frustrated today. Suddenly realised that i am such an unfair person. Always demand so much from people, yet i give myself too many excuses. I'm just a human anyway... why can't i be more truthful to myself?

Sigh, if you don't understand what i'm saying... its okay. I don't understand too... till next time.

Things moves slower here....

2007-03-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

"predator in action"

As you can see, this little bird is trying to steal food right under my nose! Brave right? LOL~ Just some updates since my internet connection is acceptable today.

1) Well, my internet connection sucks... I don't know why! It was "okay" for like 2 days, den it became like this again. hai~ I wana move house!!

2) Learning bahasa indonesia now. Hopefully can converse in it by the end of my course.

3) Mugging mugging and more mugging. Well, thats pretty much what i can do in this boring place. I missed my home, i missed my friends, i missed the late night supper, i missed the serenity the beach gave me during the night and i missed..............

4) Lost weight! Happy man... cos the food here is not as fantastic as compare to SG. My appetite strunk and i'm slimmer now. =) Need to start to run more regularly to maintain my fitness. JCC no. 2? LoL~

5) Slowly you will realised that things moved slower over here. Nobody is rushing. Everybody takes their time... (But when you start to have blur vision, it means you are too fast for the pace of life here. LOL~

Thats all folks!! Catch you all soon....

Beginning of a new chapter...

2007-02-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

"When a new chapter in your life begins,

its just like when u walk into a tunnel.

Everywhere is dark,

and you don't know what lies ahead of you.

You may fall if u walk too fast,

but you are just too anxious to reach the end.

Will there be light at the end of the tunnel?

Or is there a train that is heading your way?

Who knows? We may never know...

So instead of turning your back and get out of the tunnel,

hold on to my hand and lets go through this journey together.

I can't guarantee that we won't fall along the way.

But with faith, i promised to keep walking till the very end..."

(adapted from somewhere...)

If i were you...

2007-02-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

You want to know where we go from here.
So many roads, but none that seem clear.
Is what we have enough to last a whole life through?
Who knows. Baby, who knows.

So you're asking me 'what do we do'?
'Cause times moves so fast, and the chances seem so few.
Is it too much to think that we could have it all?
Who knows. Baby who knows.

But if I were you I'd promise to live life for all its worth.
Take all that you've been given and leave your mark upon this earth.
Trust your heart to show you everything you'll ever need.
And if I were you, I'd fall in love with me.

So hold me close, I'll kiss away your tears.
I won't promise the moon, but I promise to be here.
And what if together it gets better everyday?
Who knows. We may never know...

But if I were you I'd promise to live life for all its worth.
Take all that you've been given and leave your mark upon this earth.
Trust your heart to show you everything you'll ever need.
And if I were you, I'd fall in love with me.

If I were you, I'd fall in love with me.

Settling in...

2007-02-19T11:59:00.000+08:00

Greetings!! haha~ slowly settling into Brisbane. But still yet to found a permanent place to call home. haha~ Hopefully can find soon.

Sunny sunday in school. Every shops is close~ and i don't have broadband access at home~ See how pathetic.

Leaving on a jet plane

2007-02-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

All my bags are packed and I'm ready to go,

I'm standing here outside your door,

I hate to wake you up to say good-bye.

But the dawn is breaking, it's early mornin',

The taxi is waiting and is blowing his horn,

I'm ready, I'm so lonesome, I could die.

So kiss me and smile for me,

Tell me that you'll wait for me,

Hold me like you never let me go.

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane,

I don't know when I'll be back again,

Oh babe, I hate to go.

There's so many times I've let you down,

So many times I've played around,

And I'll tell you that they don't mean a thing.

Every place I go I think of you,

Every song I sing I sing for you,

When I'll come back, I'll wear your wedding ring.


So kiss me and smile for me,

Tell me that you'll wait for me,

Hold me like you never let me go.

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane,

I don't know when I'll be back again,

Oh babe, I hate to go.

And now the time has come to leave you,

One more time let me kiss you,

And close your eyes and I'll be on my way.

Dream about the days to come when I want after leave alone,

By the times that I won't have to say.


Oh kiss me and smile for me,

Tell me that you'll wait for me,

Hold me like you never let me go.

Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane,

I don't know when I'll be back again,

Oh babe, I hate to go.

But I'm leaving on a jet plane,

I don't know when I'll be back again,

Oh babe, I hate to go.

But I'm leaving on a jet plane,

Leaving on a jet plane, (x 7)On a jet plane.

blessings...

2007-02-09T11:44:00.000+08:00

"Never have i felt this way before,
it seems so unreal,
its kind of scary.
But i'm still thankful.

Every action and every speech,
it seems so familiar,
its kind of weird.
But i'm still thankful."

Quality Time

2007-01-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

After starting to clear my leave, time is what i have now~ Walking around, meeting up friends whom i haven't been able to meet lately, going for maths revision class, are just a few things i've been doing for the past few weeks. Day by day, time is running out and i am leaving soon.

For those of you who want to know, i'll be departing for Brisbane on the 10th Feb 07, 2350 hrs. Actually, i'd say no need to come send me off ba. I guess i'll feel paiseh if you all come. Somemore so late at night, midnight charge is gonna kill most of you. hahaa~

Math is killing me. Its suppose to be revision, and i agree to a certain extend, i'm still struggling. Maybe i'm rusty, but there's still things that i've never learn before! Gaussian Elimination? WTF is that?! The worse part is i forgot how to factorise. Anyone can help? hahahaa~

Thanks to LAM who have been so helpful despite his busy schedule to find cheaper and more convenient temp accommodation for me.

The next stage of my life..

2006-12-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

Recently, my days have been spend settling my pre-school administration. Preparation to start school again after 2 years in the army. Feeling excited, yet i'm not anxious to go over so soon. Guess i'll miss my friends. Hopefully this experience will make me a stronger person. And of cos, train me to be more attention to detail instead of running away from the administrative work.

My new OC told me that, my path will most probably be staff officer after completing my OC tour. WtF!? I joined the army so that my job will be a more meaningful one interacting with the soldiers, making a difference to their life. Definitely not slogging out in the office from 8 to 5 just to settle some paper works. hai~

Bought 2 new gadgets recently...

Sony Ericsson w810i walkman phone

Asus A8J series laptop

This somewhat complete my slow transformation from a military man to a student. Bless me to get a degree successfully. Its going to be a huge task ahead. I'll match up to it!

My departure date have not been confirm as the travel agency haven't get back to me yet. But tentatively, i'm looking at departing from SG on the 7th Feb. Will update as soon as i got the confirmation.

Merry X'mas to all!! May the world become a more peaceful place to live in. ;)

A tribute to those people who have made a difference in my PC tour...

2006-11-26T13:51:00.000+08:00

"Operational Ready Soldiers"

Friday, 24th Nov 06. The day my unit have a parade to symbolised our turning operational. It doesn't really mean a lot to me. Especially since i'm disrupting for further studies next year. It feels just like another working day. But slowly when the day approaches, can see that all the men feels something about it. Its the "I" in the L.I.V.E that the whole army is talking about now. Image and Identity. It sure makes everyone feels more proud to be part of the battalion. Even with minimal time for rehearsal, everyone still puts in a lot of effort, to show the visitors what they have become after one year into the army. "WE ARE READY!" Thats the message the men wants to bring out to the parents and friends sitting in the stands.

"Rawdy 1st yr Platoon Leaders"

Thats us! (With the Rawdy Creed behind us, Sadly i still did not manage to remember it) Well i admit i'm short, so don't be mislead by the picture. I'm standing on step. =) Thinking back 2 yrs in time, i'm still a guy who is "BLUR" but pack with lotsa enthusiasim as i wanted to be a Guards Officer. Til now, i've achieve what i've aimed for. Leading a platoon which never stop impressing me each time i bring them out for training. Their dedication to the platoon, even though they are (what the foreigners call it) draftees can match full time regular armies head on! Their spirit of not giving up that they show during LANCER training was just what makes a true GUARDSMEN special, definitely sets them apart from the others.

My OC and the 2 platoon leaders, with whom i've created such a strong understanding and bonding. The company, have stick together through tough training, up the moutain, cross a river and numerous (heliborne)missions we have went through to bring this company where we are. It sure is a GREAT experience working with you guys, an ULTRA understanding OC, and both of you, great buddies on and off work. I always believe, that even though we were not physically the fittest company, but mentally, i'm sure we are there. Its the cohesiveness of our company that makes us different from the rest.

Positive Experiences

2006-11-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

Back from LANCER. Well, manage to bring all my men back in one piece. =) Have a much better trip then the first time i went there.

I'm very happy that my men pull through the LANCER training package without much help from me. I must say that they have really impressed me a lot during the training. Motivating each other along the way when the going gets tougher. Well Done PLT 1. I'm happy not only because they all manage to pull through the training together. I'm happy because they've mature from a boy who needs someone senior to push them on, to a man who help each other and pushes their friends along when they see them struggling. They never gave up.

Maybe its because of the approached my PS and me had on them. Its quite ironic though. Its never discussed. But during admin, my PS was the one who was tough on them. Giving out punishments and etc. And i'm always the good guy, talking to them, motivating them. But when out in the field for mission exercises, our roles automatically changes. I'm the one who keeps "NAGGING" at them. Showing little concern even when they are struggling, while my PS would help them carry some of their load if they are feeling unwell.

During commander's AAR after our last mission exercise, this is what 1 of my guy said in front of my CO, OC and other comds, "I feel that during this exercise, the platoon never gives up. Can see that they pushes each other so hard and they never want to give up. Everyone is willing to die for our PC." WAH~ stunning words came out from his mouth. Shocked everyone present in the AAR. Don't know want to be happy or not. =) But, like always i've to say this. I'm tough on them during training, so that they don't have to die for their country. I want them to make the enemy die for their country if they are required to fight. Well, maybe its something that my PS and myself have done right. But i'm just glad that i've managed to give them a positive experience during my time as their PC. Hopefully all of them have learn something important from me. Character wise. =)

Anyway, just some updates. I've receive an offer from UWA. 2.5yrs of study starting next feb. Now i'm still waiting for UQ to reply me. I have to pay the deposit by the end of this month!! Don't know whats the hold up. No time already and still no reply yet. Tomorrow going back to SP as student! Haa~ On course from tomorrow to friday. Not bad huh, can study a little. Break away from regimental life style in the army.

Show me the effort!!!

2006-10-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

First of all, happy birthday to my dearest swee and jian!! coincidentally born on the same day~ Wishing both of you the best in everything you do!

Been a very busy and tiring few weeks. My energy level was simply drained out of me. Training schedule was very packed. And this only means 1 thing, the commanders will be damn stretched. Before every training, we have to plan them. During the training we have to go through them with our men. And after coming back from the training we have to clear up all the mess we made to our rifles, and other personal equipments. Had company live firing, CSB 32km march(Yes, i marched again but with my platoon this time), CWO training and other company mission exercise training. Had long weekend last week as friday is an off day. But spend my whole weekend at home sleeping and recuperating. Ha~ Can you imagine? My mom even thought that i was dumped by a girl! LOL~ Like i told my mom, if i had e time to find a partner, then i must be gay. Cos all the time i had have been spend with the guys in camp.

This week only have 3 official working days for me. Will have OFF until 26th OCT. Will be flying off to LANCER on that day for training. Though its just three days, its been 3 hectic days that have finally passed. Suddenly "KENA ARROWED" to be the Luggage Officer. Then have to quickly make coordinations and other preparatory work. Thats not the worst. The worst part is, i wasn't briefed!!! How can they coordinate anything without me sitting in the same meeting when i'm the Luggage Officer?! How am i suppose to perform my job like this?!?! And when i do something that is not according to the coordinated plan, i was scolded. I DON'T KNOW THE PLAN!! HOW TO FOLLOW!?!?! -_- Don't know wtf is happening. Last minute work always!! Don't give a f*** now. I'm doing my job and my job is to ensure that all the luggages in my flight goes up the plane and to LANCER. Anybody try to mess around with me will get hell from me.

Enjoy this FLASH clip about NS. http://sgcafe.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=56964&d=1160303271

Good luck to all that have exams coming up. Though i'm sure after i started to study i will regret i once said this...

I can't wait to study again.

La Man's Life Mission Statement
La Man is to make sure he enjoy his life to the fullest and not regret it when its his time on the death bed.

Confused mind...

2006-09-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

When you picked up something... some times, its really difficult to put it down. Well, strangely when you've finally decided to put it down, years later you'd want to pick it up again.

I'm confused... I need a good enough explaination to put things organised, which, i'm not getting. My head tells me that i'm unhappy to be forced to put it down before. But my heart tells me to let it go and pick it back up again now.

What should i do...?

What would you do...?

Army Half Marathon

2006-09-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

Completed my first half marathon... wow that feels good~ but my feet hurts after that~ haha~ anyway... seen the chinese sensei already...now will have to wait for my leg to recover...
READY TO STRIKE!!

Before the race: "Preparing for the start of the race!"

After the race: "Still fresh... but my feet hurts!!

Taiwan Getaway!! cont.

2006-09-03T20:29:00.001+08:00

"Counter Terrorist Wins..."

"LAO BAN FENG LE?!?!"

"Trying on my new shoes"

"Who brought my car to taipei?!"

"Getting ready to go back to SG"

"Restaurant that i recommend... VEGAS VEGAS!"

"Good service, good food..."

"Waiting for my food..."

"Here it comes!! First!! Calamari...Oiishi ne"

"Recommended!"

Taiwan Getaway!!

2006-09-03T14:22:00.000+08:00

Went Taipei for a short getaway trip to relax myself with my campmates. Photos attached!!

Day 1: After checking in, we decided to chiong to the nearest night market.

"Why so long? so hungry sia..."

As we are very hungry, we decided to stop by 1 shop which is quite cheap to have our meal.

"Sure not? Try lar..."

"Why so long?"

Surprisingly, the food is better then expected!!

*Smiles*

"Link Bridge?"

Day2: Rise and shine!!

"View from our room"

"Breakfast!! And off we go again!!"

"Kids don't do this at home...LOL"

"Hot day at Xi Men Ding"

"eh~ take picture lei, dun walk so fast..."

"My PreeccCcioooousssssss"

"This lady dance really well!! But no figure..LOL"

"And we saw Hei Ren"

"Law abiding tourist"

Taiyou no uta (A song to the sun)

2006-08-05T11:12:00.000+08:00

"Taiyou no uta"

Recently, under recommendation from KB, i've managed to catch a few good japanese drama during my free time. (which is almost all the time when i'm not in camp) No life right? Thanks to the fact that school is starting soon and all my friends, for some reason are busy with their own life.

The above drama, "Taiyou no uta", or "A song to the sun" is the new summer japanese drama currently showing on screen every friday night in japan. There's a movie version of this drama already shown at japan. Unfortunately, the trend in SG now is KOREA KOREA and KOREA. So i couldn't find the VCD's from any of the shops i've visited. Hope that the demand for japanese dramas/movie will be up again so that we won't be missing out on all this great shows!!!

Choices

2006-08-02T00:43:00.000+08:00

Today, something amazing happened!

Men A: Sir, you didn't sleep well last night? Are you okay?
Me: I'm okay, you all go and have your break. (continue sitting down...)
(a while later...)
Men B: Sir, you okay? You don't look well today. Very restless. What happened?
Me: Nothing ar, just doesn't want to eat KFC so i'm slacking here. Don't worry about me, you all enjoy the meal. (took a nap...)
(a while later...)
PS: Sir, heard that you didn't sleep well yesterday, if you really tired, you wanna go back first? I can handle today no problem.
Me: Nono, aiyo~ don't worry la you all! I'm really fine, just a bit restless. I'm not doing much also, just helping out. All the managing is done by you! Just using my muscles so no need to use brain. :)

Well, guys who have chose to sign on, is this the reason why u chose this career? Did you regret signing on because you are not consider "SCHOLAR" and therefore will never be able to become CDF one day?

Competition never ends, you just have to know when to acknowledge what you have achieved today and be contented with your achievements tomorrow.

~Thank you Platoon 1~

UGLY SINGAPOREAN... hai~

2006-07-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

When the survey says that singapore is rank among the worst country when it comes to courtesy, people always point their fingers to the people working in the service sector. Is that really true? Well, i really hope that we as Singaporeans will STOP pointing fingers and reflect on our own behavior.

Was at the NDP Family day yesterday as usher. Everything seems to go as what i've experienced when i was usher during my poly days! People being polite, queuing up to get into the stadium and etc. But this change when the weather becomes very hot and the queue gets longer.

Here i am trying my best to put up a smile in this ultra hot day and i have people scolding me for having all the barricades put up to form the huge queue as the people is coming in.
Then, as no one was manning my barricades, they just push aside the barricades and let themselves access into the stadium. So now i have to put somebody, much younger than them to mann the barricades to make sure they behave themselves.
After manning the barricades, the unthinkable happened. The orange netting that is suppose to form the queue was broken and the crowds came dashing in, skipping the ticket collector. So this time, i have to call for backup to mann those orange netting.
Some people simply refusing to co-orperate despite talking to them nicely. They even threaten us that they will write a complain letter to the minister!!

I'm a 100% singaporean and if you ask all my friends, they would know that i really love my country. Therefore I'm not saying all this because all Singaporeans behaves like this or that i hate singaporeans. In fact, there were lots of people smiling back when they see me smiling, and lots of "thank yous" from appreciative people as they could see that we were putting in a lot of effort even though we were really drenched in our on sweat. So you make your own conclusion about the outcome of the survey. Is it really true the the people in our service sector is not working hard? Or is it because of unappreciative people?

A picture says a thousand words...

2006-06-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

"Experience of a lifetime"

Thanks to my APS2, i finally layed my hands on a heli rappeling photograph. Not the best picture, but its better than nothing!!

Busy month as always, as my battalion prepares for NDP as well as training up for our operational requirements of protecting our country. All this training will be tested next week as my platoon prepares for our Platoon Proficiency Test. Over the past month, i've been preparing my platoon, both physically and also mentally size them up for this important test for every men inside the platoon.

Will continue to be busy for the months to come. In charge of NDP Ticket Collection for the 1st and 2nd of July. Helping my friend in managing the primary school students that will be coming for the NE Show. And also, not forgetting training my men for the POI requirement that they will be required to know and perform during their Ops next year.

As many of my friends prepares to ORD, i'm feeling slightly emotional. They are the ones who have gone through thick and thin with me. They are the ones that i've shared my happiest moment, and they are the ones who have pull me along when i've reached my physical limits. The comradeship formed, will never be forgotten. May we meet again "poon 3".

Work work...

2006-05-21T18:41:00.000+08:00

Sucks man, rejected again by both schools. Though i send an appeal to NTU, but i don't hold high hopes.

Heard that some of my friends have already been posted back to OCS as instructor after just 7 months!! And here i am still clearing my PC tour. But its okay i guess, i'm cherishing the experience i am having now with my men and commanders.

My used to "ORD" date is getting nearer and nearer... The feeling of seeing the mates who have gone through thick and thin with me going off... out of army... makes me feel sad. Eh~ sign on lei.. LOL

Been busy for the whole week.. next few weeks will only get worse. So many things to worry about!! Standard of my platoon, morale of my commanders, and meeting the expectation of my Superior!! Plus many many administrative instruction to prepare before the conduct of the various lessons/training. It all adds up to the lack of sleep and a certain "pek cek" feeling that is slowly, but surely gathering up and threathening to erupt any time soon. If i ever, eruptted on you guys, please forgive me. hmm... I take care of so many people, than who is going to take care of me?!

How envy, Mich went for yet another month long tour with her BF. CJ and LH going for the initial "HONEYMOON" Trip to tw soon. I'll be slogging out for the whole year with over 30 days leave yet to clear. SO UNFAIR!!

Need more photos...

2006-05-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

No pictures for my blog?! How can? *Keep searching*

Rejected by NTU yet again. Pray that NUS would give me a chance...

A Chance to go NUS?

2006-04-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

I'm going Alpha Company! Rawdy Brotherhood~ LOL Prepared to train my new men for the coming platoon proficiency test. Need to prepare myself for the test too!

Received a letter from NUS asking me to take a math and physics test this coming saturday. Felt excited! Cos at least i've got a chance to get a place in NUS. But find myself forgetting EVERYTHING that i've learned before. Read thru my previous notes and couldn't do almost all the questions. Hai~ is it destined that i can't go into local u? Hope i'll have time to revise in camp.

Better Stereo

2006-04-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

Busy week with "Murphy" visiting me quite often. Well, if you don't get what i mean, well its the Murphy's law i'm refering to. You see, i'm suppose to conduct ECH training for the trainees. "Kena" the arrow about a few days before the co-ord with the navy. Ended up working overtime to draft out my plan before the co-ord. So everything seems to be in a rush but goes smoothly until the actual day, when the buses that was supposed to bring the trainees to Tuas Naval Base went to Changi Naval Base instead. WTF?! So we missed the vessels that was suppose to bring us to P.Sudong for training. The only thing that was positive was that my friend was the Guard Comd that day, so booking into the base has never been easier, and FASTER! Thanks pal~

Went out yesterday with the usual gang. Its not as noisy with those "noisy ppl" missing out on the outing. *wink* After a busy and tiring week with lots of "FIRE" to fight, its the most peaceful time i've enjoyed for a while! Chauffering the girls to and from the makan place. Allowing the girls to plan for a trip overseas which always never happened. =p

Reward myself with a base tube for my car! Adding some "ohmm" into the car's stereo system. Its been awhile! Must start to treat myself better. =)

Going outfield next week. GCC SUMMEX for the new trainees~ Gonna be a few days without sleep for everybody including the Cadres.

Get a Life

2006-04-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

Life has never been so boring. Week in week out, its camp - home, camp - home. Theres no excitement, nothing. hai~ GET A LIFE ERIC!!

Anyway, the good part about being so focus on work is, that the Safety Audit i was tasked to anchor by my Boss has score a Band One result. 96.(something)%. An improvement from the last Audit. Happy! Of cos, since my hard work bore fruit. But sad cos this has made my life so boring, that i wish to escape. Maybe plan a trip to visit lam? haha~

Reflections

2006-03-18T21:53:00.000+08:00

Finally~ Safety Audit over. Pending the report from the auditor. Immediately was tasked to help out in the coming GCC. Feel like i need a break. After months of hard work, but now GCC? Worst! I'm the safety officer for almost all the activity. Couldn't even join them in their physical training! A sudden lost of direction. Don't know which direction am i heading. Why am i working so hard?

1 of the trainee, a captain, was hospitalised yesterday for physical exhaustion. I went over to hospital to link up with his parents while he was in A&E. To my relieved, he was alright. Was quite worried, as it was the first time i saw someone KO-ed after run. And he practically gone "INSANE". Doesn't know what he was doing, doesn't know what he was saying. The best part was, that after he regained his consciousness, he kept telling me that he felt wasted not to have completed the run as he was about 100m away from the end point and have got a very good timing.

Until i achieved that level of motivation, i guess i'll never attained a GOLD standard in my physical fitness test.

Nowadays, it seems to be a trend for me to lose friends. I missed my OCS mates. Have gone through thick and thin with them. And now everybody was busy with their work in their respective units. Called them up, and the reply was either they were the DO the next day, or they were staying in with their newly enlisted recruits. These trend includes females too! Apparently their boyfriend was kind of protective. So couldn't even meet up anymore. *sigh* Guess i'll drive around later in the night to find a peace and quiet place for self reflection...

Feel Good

2006-03-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

These few weeks, life have never felt better! The focus was "WORK". Day in day out, i've been pushing people, both my subordinates and superior to prepare their stuff before the Safety Audit that is coming up. Rushing around from camp to camp, to submit documents, attend safety workshop and etc. I'm suddenly the SAFEST person in the whole of my battalion! Even after office hours, when i'm having dinner with my friends, my mind will still be thinking of the things i'm going to do the next day.

Maybe its the FEEL GOOD factor i'm after. To accomplish a task i'm assigned to do, to the best of my ability. As pointed out by my Dy, "last year, HR Audit get Band 1(95% and above), Logistics Audit also Band one.. how about Safety Audit?" These have set me worrying. What if the audit didn't turn out well? *Stressed* Well, remembering what my WINGCOMD always said, "although the results is important. But the process of attaining the result is even more crucial. To obtain the FEEL GOOD factor, we got to work hard, no matter what, to achieve what we set out to do. To be the best!" Pray that God would bless me with all the strength that i lack, the wisdom that i need, and the courage that i yearn to have, to pull through this BUSY time.

Did AOP and briefing on my 24km route march for the battalion. Can't believe my S2 was so "STRICT" in every single thing. He wanted my AI to be so detail, that i must specify which personnel sits in which vehicle. Kind of giving me a feeling that i'm planning for some major battalion exercise and that everything must be place on the AI. Good training, even did my briefing as if i'm giving OPS Order with all the Blown up map, AO Map around. Wow~ Good learning experience.

Also, i've been selected by my S1 to help him in the ushering of VIPs during NDP this year. Sector OIC for one of the Sector. haha~ my men? Some 20 SMU Students! HAha~ Can't get the firmed up numbers yet but its around there. Who knows i might meet up with my OCS instructor? Nah~ don't think after army they would want to join this kind of event.

I guess the only thing i missed out these few weeks was to get my fitness back. After work i'm so tired usually i'll be too lazy to exercise. Just swam at least 1km during the weekends every week to cover up the lost time. Which is not enough!!! Must start getting my butts of running before i fail my IPPT.

About me...

2006-02-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hey all, let me know about what you think of me!!
Go to this page, and follow the instructions. Thanks!

http://kevan.org/johari?name=LA-MAN

Local Study Award

2006-01-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Finally got my LSA today. Signed the conversion of my contract to SAVERS as well. Hope i could get into local university this time around. (*crossed fingers*)

dreams...

2006-01-21T07:17:00.000+08:00

Life can be so depressing, sometimes you just wanted to run away. To hide away from any of the nonsense that is giving you so many problems...

How i wish i'm still young, no expectations, no worries, no stress... Only dreams, dreams that i wanted to fulfill in my life before i go...

Where are you...? The road in front seems misty, i think i've lost my way. I couldn't find you...

Working so hard everyday yet seemingly being BULLIED by everybody in the whole world. How can this happen? People under me bully me, people above me also bully me. If i can handle everything i'd not have ask them to do their job! Then if the job gets done, my boss gets the credit. If it didn't go as well, i'll take the blame. WTF?!

Aiming to go Airborne Course. Even if i die (*touchwood*), at least i've jumped out of the plane once. I've sound off my intention to my S3. He is one garang soldier, so i guess he'll definitely push me for this coming course. But first i need to get back into shape. My fitness haven't been up to standard lately. Due to the busy work schedule and of cos, its not an excuse. So i'll admit, i'm lazy.

Been unlucky lately, anyone got lucky charm to give me? Boost my luck a little.

Song that touches my heart~

2006-01-08T19:57:00.000+08:00

浪漫手机

曲：周杰伦词：方文山编：洪敬尧

轻轻放我就是卸不下对你的喜欢原来爱会慢慢增加重量想关上这城市所有的灯光黑暗中专心闻

你的发香这夜晚让暗恋有画面感回想与你约会过的地方有舍不得的删在脑海里储存欣赏你微

笑浏览手机里的浪漫原来真心送出爱是这么简单温馨影幕上你可爱的模样关于缘分的解释我

又多传了一行你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫原来爱情可以来得这么突然短信的桥梁就暧昧期拉长

我们的感情蔓延滋长用文字培养在虚拟土壤电视墙嘈杂的情歌还在拚命播放我安静在闹区等来

电铃响不有一些打好了却不敢传怕收到信息的你在为难街道上人潮衬托我的孤单想像谁幸运的

陪在你身旁却误会一场你也在等你手机响你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫原来真心送出爱是这么简单

温馨影幕上你可爱的模样关于缘分的解释我又多传了一行你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫原来爱情

可以来得这么突然短信的桥梁就暧昧期拉长我们的感情蔓延滋长用文字培养在虚拟土壤

五月天 - I LOVE YOU 无望

2005-12-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

是你的形影, 叫我逐天作眠梦, 梦中可爱的人,伊不是别人

我的每一天 ,一分钟也不当轻松, 你是我爱的人,将我来戏弄.

九月的风在吹,哪会寒到心肝底,希望变无望,决定我的一世人

I LOVE YOU 无望,你甘是这款人,没法度来作阵,也没法度将我放

I LOVE YOU 无望,我就是这款人,我身边没半项,只有对你的思念

陪伴我的每一天

2005-12-03T16:43:00.000+08:00

I need time... i couldn't breath... so many things thrown in front of me in such short notice... i couldn't take it... help...

May i present, the newly converted Guards Commanders!

2005-11-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

"Guardsmen Warriors"

SUMMEX is finally over! I'm back with new found CONFIDENCE! I'm finally gonna lead men! No more being a trainee! =)

Base on the things ppl told me bout their SUMMEX and i compare mine to theirs, i certainly think tt mine, might not be as tough as theirs. But certainly more learning values in them. First 3 missions was in Lim Chu Kang area. Did an assault, quick attack and then defence. Although not the appointment holders, but the way we attack the objectives with the specialist does make the attack more meaningful. Learning from them while also giving them our own input. But lack of sleep makes the handing and taking over of stores a hassle. The specialist just dun gif a damn! So pek cek~ I feel that only the officers are afraid of losing stores. Which is weird! In the end, i think a few of the specialist did lose something.

PC for OOTW mission. Total screwed up! Firstly, no orders were given to me. But instead i need to do AOP with my OC. Den give my orders to my specs. My AOP screwed me up the most i guess. CO and S3 around assessing me. Didn't do myself any favour... should have found out more bout the mission but no time.

Finishing all the mission on friday, den have to casevac from the DOGBA bridge back to jetty. Not too bad, but just angry tt a lot of specs are just skiving through... Thought that the rumoured march from SFT to Bedok camp is cancel cos we even did our AAR already. But ended up still being asked to unload from the tonner halfway through the journey. The march wasn't exactly tough, just feeling sleepy, hungry(din eat dinner) and of cos fatigue from the previous 5 days. Think my knee cui liao... The ceremony was quite meaningful~ Can see the effort put in by the instructors. I will think back of the tough times i've went through, and tell myself... thats what makes a Guardsmen different from an infantrymen.

Going for LSA interview tomorrow~ Gonna prepare later. Wish me luck!! The car i'm looking for is still quite ex for me lei. Any rich kid wanna buy it to me as birthday present? wahaha!

"Who want to give up?"

2005-11-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

Did the Guards Assault Course today. Phew~ Finally its over... Memories of cadet days came flooding back. Always pushing each other on inspite of fatigue, weather condition and sickness. But when motivation doesn't seems to work... words like, "Who want to give up?" and "The safety rover is just behind." filled the air. Maybe its an OCS way of motivating each other. But whenever we hear this, there will always be an extra energy coming from within ourselves to push on towards the finishing line. No one is willing to give up... no one is willing to let our buddy beside us down.

One more week to my Khaki beret!! One last week of hell week before i get ready for the real thing! 5 days, 6 missions, 2 helicopters, 100 concertina wires... Can i make it? Will there be Charlie Mike? Uncertainties all over the place, but one thing is for sure, i must pull through!!!

Guards Creed

2005-10-29T12:22:00.000+08:00

"Ready to Strike"

We are Guardsmen Warriors

Resolute in Loyalty

Steadfast in Commitment

We fight for our country, our home, and our family.

Land warriors from Air and Sea

Unfailling in toughness

Valiant in our actions

We destroy all foes, who challenge our mission.

We are elite warriors

With daring initiatives

We rule the day

We rule the night

Always Ready

READY TO STRIKE!

Busy busy....

2005-10-29T11:31:00.000+08:00

Its been some time since i updated my blog. Actually is more of laziness. Currently in my fourth week of Guards Conversion Course. Training was tough, but enough time was given to us to recuperate. Every weekend was like so tired dun feel like updating the blog. Alright, key event that happened during my MIA period...

58/04 Charlie 'n' Hotel Commissioning ball

"With Dy Chairperson"

"My gorgeous date!"

Ultra sian... Went Pulau Sudong for some EX. Then after the day practise, got the Guards treatment. "Guards Beach Physical Training". I tink its more of a tekan session. Lasted for 2 hours when it was suppose to be 1. Was told by our instructor that its a tradition for all Guards Commanders to go through this. I guess its some kind of initiation process. Nvm~ Suck it up and emerge a stronger person! But sadly didn't performed up to par during the night practise as the PC. Buck up Eric!

Finally got news of my LSA application!~ Date of interview not set yet. As the earliest is 8th Nov. Which i couldn't make it due to the summary exercise i have to attend tt week. I'm pretty sure i wont be well prepared for the interview if i leave half way through the exercise. Better concentrate and get the Khaki beret~

2005-10-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

"Proud parents"

My Big Day~

2005-10-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

"Presenting, the Newly Commissioned Officers!"

1st October marks the day i made my parents (and 'tt' someone) proud! "I did not disappoint!" =) Reporting to 1st Guards this thursday but starting my Guards Conversion Course on 10th Oct to 14th Nov. Pray for me~

Special thanks to all friends who made their way down to SAFTI for the parade despite the gloomy skies... Really happy to see all of you'll there!

58/04 Army Appointment Certificate Presentation

2005-09-25T11:55:00.000+08:00

I've received my sword!! Finally after almost 10 months of training... in a weeks time i'll be commissioned by the President as Officer of the SAF. I'm also been posted to 1st Battalion Guards. Well, mixed feelings... Yes, 1 Guards is nearer to my place then 3 Guards... which is good! But all of my friends will be going to 3 Guards~ And when i say all, i mean all! Out of 13 ppl going Guards from my wing, i'm the only 1 going 1 Guards. Charlie have 4 representative going guards this time around. And i guess, i'll be the weakess link among them all! I'm the less fit person lar... Somemore run so slow... stress~

Looking forward to be part of the organising committee next year in organising the Nations Birthday! But then again, i'll 've to go through a 3 weeks (I think) of Guards Conversion Course. How sian can it be? Just commissioned, suppose to be a happy occasion, but before i could really be happy about it, i have to go through yet another course again. Somemore this course is suppose to be VERY challenging lar. piangz eh... Than heard from Sjian, the Supervising is my previous Hotel Wing PC, CPT Tay. Famous for being a little physco when he turn out people. Heard that, one of the things he did before was asking his trainees, to drink up from their dirty and smelly helmet. *faintz*

Oh yes, my university updates. Currently, have been offered by University of Newcastle and Adelaide. UQ still haven't reply yet. But everything is on hold as my LSA interview board have not been schedule yet. If no LSA = no study. haix~ My brother have also been encouraging me to apply for his previous school in UK. troublesome.... Will make the considerations after i've at least secure LSA.

I wanna buy a MOTORBIKE! Anyone got lobang? Phantom or TW200. Second hand. I'm only willing to pay $2000+. hai~ So many decisions have to make these days. But still haven't been able to convince my mom of letting me buy a bike. Nvm, I'll search for lobang first. =)

Below are some of my ACPC photographs! More will come if my friends send them to me... In the mean time... take a look! Jeffrey's camera is like shit lar.. cannot see face clearly one. hehe~

Jeffrey and Me

Better camera from Jian: Jeffrey, Jian and Me

You Are INVITED!!

2005-09-24T09:13:00.000+08:00

Dear all! I'm commissioning!! Together with a group of my friends... (i.e. poly classmates and NPCC buddies) Everyone are cordially invited to our commissioning parade at 1st OCT 2005, SAFTI MI Parade Square. Guest are reminded to be seated by 1715hrs. Dress code: Smart Casual. Admission is FREE!!!

List of friends and their location in the parade:

OCT Lye Chai Jian - Hotel 3
OCT Luo Qin Hao - Hotel 3
OCT Jeffrey Tan - Colours Party
OCT Clinton Lam - Airforce 4
OCT Chua Bobby - Airforce 4
OCT Eric Lee - Hotel 7

温柔

2005-09-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

温柔

曲：阿信词：阿信编：五月天

走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔天的温柔地的温柔

像你抱着我然后发现你的改变孤单的今后如果冷

该怎么渡过天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中你的眼中

藏着什么我从来都不懂没有关系你的世界

就让你拥有不打扰是我的温柔不知道不明了不想要

为什么我的心明明是想靠近却孤单的黎明不知道

不明了不想要为什么我的心那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里

再把我的最好的爱给你不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口

我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦没有预兆没有理由

你真的有说过如果有就让你自由这是我的温柔

photo updates...

2005-09-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

Just some photos from my jcc badge presentation in brunei...

58/04 Hotel Wing JCC badge Presentation
"We've survived!"

Hotel 09 - EX NOMAD

American Soldier

2005-09-04T17:20:00.000+08:00

New York Times Bestseller

This book was presented to me by my beloved classmates yesterday during our usual supper outings. But the only thing tt is not usual is tt this time i'm treating them. -_-" Well its my birthday for those of you who din noe on the 2nd sept. But due to our busy schedules, we only manage to go out yesterday.

For your information, i'm not a reader. Most of the times if e book doesn't interest me, i'll fall asleep trying to read them. Thats wad make it even more surprising when they decides to give me this book. Is it because i'm a regular? Or wad? haha~ They claim that i'll enjoy this book and may even turn successful if i'm able to learn a thing or 2 from this man, GEN Tommy Franks. We'll see bout tt.

Cheers to all! Thanks for spending your precious time wif me. Its been great knowing you guys since yr 1! So when's our next oversea trip? =)

hurray~

2005-09-04T16:57:00.000+08:00

Just receive a letter from UWA. Apparently they've deem me as eligible for entry to the third year of the Bachelor of Engineering degree program with 96 points credit. Something to cheer about huh? But due to e fact tt i didn't pass my O lvl english, now i have to take some kind of language test. English test..?Now? How sia.... haix~ anyway will still go give it a try. Don't let my effort all go down the drain. How i wish i've pass my english then.....

Done wif e finale!

2005-09-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

Back from camp, and rush down to P.Ubin today. Did some recce for my wing cohesion. fwAh~ super tiring. But luckily got to eat my fav ji pa mian. haha!

Completed the last EX for me in OCS! EX Panther was a coy coastal hook attack on BUA. After that will transit to POI at the same objective. Not too shiong i guess, minus the bad weather and the SEMULA order by our wing comd to re-do the attack. Oh yes! And the lack of sleep. Was the EX PS for my platoon for POI. Super tiring, no chance to sleep. First, have to settle the stores. Then the prep for the mission and lastly ensuring that the men do their job. So i've to walk around. Anything happen i have to be around too. Doses off a few times b4 being waken up by my PC thru comms. Then have to do work. Haix.....-_-zZz

Next week, Platoon Assault Course Training and some "not so impt" lectures and activities. Looking forward to the Parade Rehearse. Parade format is out! I hope i'm not in the contingent that stands behind lor. Super sian...

Kindness is tenderness. Kindness is love, but perhaps greater than love...Kindness is good will. Kindness says, "I want you to be happy. - Randolph Ray

Stumble upon this quote and it kind of struck me. Being kind can be so tiring, but why am i still holding on alone?

Anyone knows e problem?

2005-08-27T18:58:00.000+08:00

hai~ have been trying to figure out why i can't play the music in my blog. Started to play without any problems at first but after some time there is this error msg. Anyone can help?

Where is e love?

2005-08-24T02:40:00.000+08:00

Will you be around when i needed you?

What's wrong with me? Am i just too naive or is it that ppl just don't appreciates?

Dream phone....

2005-08-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sony Ericsson W800i

will my dream comes true?

Sony Ericsson w550i

Coming Soon

From boys to men... am i a soldier now?

2005-08-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

I'm back! Just a short 3 weeks training in brunei but felt like 've gain tonnes of experiences. Nv miss home like this before~ Have been counting e days til now. Wad a relieve!! Too bad i didn't get to take a pic of myself when i jux got back from JCC. I guess i'm slowly getting back to shape now. Need to do more exercise. Feeling weak~

Brunei definitely poses many challenges to anyone who trains there. From e terrain, to the weather! Only 1 word can describe the vegetation there... "THICK!" Extensive bashing is not an option if you want to complete ur mission on time.

First phase of my training in Brunei is the Infantry Training Phase. We did platoon and company missions incorporating river crossing and climbing of the infamous 7 hidden knolls. Learn many tactical lessons that is very important for myself when i pass out (if i do) in the future. Enemy will always pop out at unexpected places and no matter what, u'll have to find a way to overcome them. Teamwork definitely comes into play alot when doing e company mission. Going through e terrain (that includes the 7 hidden knolls), if you decides not to help e person besides u, everyone will suffer. Especially those ppl who is carrying heavy loads! Can you imagine ppl having to carry over 30kg of load and yet still climb many steep slopes that requires u to use both your hands n legs?! 1 wrong step and you r down to the bottom of the knoll. Many ppl suffered cramps and all throughout e whole movement to objective. I'm glad that everyone shows good fighting spirit and teamwork to push on despite e difficulties.

Next up... Jungle Confidence Course! The anxiety was tremendous...From the pre-exercise admin to the actual exercises. Don't really know what to expect. So much stories was heard... and all it does was to confuse our decision making process.
EX NOMAD was an uncontrolled navigation exercise where we will navigate in our team level. Mission? To find 4 checkpoints, 1 midpoint and 1 endpoint by 3 days. Different navigational skills was put to the test this time as compared to ROC as we couldn't do much map to ground comparision, intersection and resection there. Even lost our way trying to find our second checkpoint. Luckily my plotting skills still not tt bad. haha~ bhb.
EX CHILLHERMIT Test of survival skills, and endurance of hunger. The task was to build several equipment e.g. shelter, fishing rod, etc for survival purpose. Got to survive there for 5 days without food. To me its not much of a test actually. I don't really feel hungry except for e fact that all kinds of food that i wanted to eat flooded my mind for 5 days. Just felt weaker n weaker when e day goes by.
EX CHILLBONE After e survival phase, was pulled out from the survival site to a landing point where we did our transision for this exercise. Milo was given to us to give us some much needed energy that we lost from e previous 5 days. I drank like nobody business lar! haha~ 03 x combat rations, 04 x biscuits and 02 x energy bar was given to us to complete our last exercise. Task of this phase was to navigate ourselves through e terrain, up Mt Biang and down again to Sungei Batu Apoi within 4 days. Can't remember how many day light hours. My team, or shd i say my platoon's aim is to complete it by the third day! haha~ so that we can all go back to taste canteen food. All e hungry faces all shows out le. Anyway, was brought to our starting point by UH1H helicopter. First day was tough. At some part of time we spend 3 to 4 hrs to travel 2km! That is by far not up to standard. By day 2 we started early determine to push on as far as possible this time. We reach Sungei Biang and started to travel on e river. Its definitely faster as compare to travelling on land. But this means we'r all wet. Some parts of e streams have water depth up to chest level. It was as if we're some special forces trying to infiltrate into enemy territory! After walking on water we had to climb again up e hills n knolls. Fatigue level slowly sets in. Day 3 we started climbing Mt Biang...suddenly u can see how everyone was so determine to complete it that even hunger, spraining of ankle n all those external factors was pushed aside. But sad to say, i almost got heat exhaustion. Temp reaches 38 degress celsius n my team was delay. Mission failed.. we stay for e night up Mt Biang. And worse still, it rained heavily tt night too...It was as if e "person up there" is putting me into some kind of test. Both mental n physical endurance test.

Well... all in all... tis is wad i've got to show for all e experience i get from brunei....

I guess its not about the badge, but e life experiences and e maturity of e mind that i gain from this trip to brunei that is very important.

lost sheep?

2005-07-31T23:51:00.000+08:00

I need some direction...

Its almost midnight...and i'm supposed to be sleeping!!In a few hours time i'll be flying off to brunei for my JCC. Close friends of my have all send their best wishes to me and went to sleep. But i just couldn't. Something is bothering me... feeling lost right now. I just hated this feeling...can be happy now, den down later. Something which alwiz come n goes but nv been able to understand it.

Am i doing the right thing? I guess some things just don't have an answer.

KB: Don't worry buddy, i'm fine. Definitely not pressuring myself to get e badge even thou it is very impt for my career. Go do some jogging.. haha~ Push ur injuried leg to e limit to get IPPT Gold! =)

Ling: Dun finish 'em all up so quickly! =)

Alex: Happy Birthday! Can't be around... but still best wishes to u!

Moving on...

2005-07-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

Finally! My plans on furthering my studies has move on. No thanks to my laziness and busy training schedules, it has been put on hold for almost a year!

I've applied for four australian university, namely ;UQ, UNewcastle, UWA and UAdelaide. All on Bac of Engineering(Electrical). Not much exemptions for me as my diploma was deem an IT related course. The consultant actually recommend me Software engineering courses, which can reduce my course of study to about 2 yrs, but i decline. Am i mad? Electrical - 4 yrs. Software - 2 yrs. Its such a big difference! Hm.. i tink i need to search my inner self again to find out why din i even put software engineering as my second choice. Will consider going UK too. My brother's school.. USurrey. As for money wise, will pray tt my fate wif LSA will be decided soon. At least i'll hav an option to apply for SAS or bank loan to cover for e rest of e cost for my studies. If things dont go my way? I'll hav to say "Bye Bye" to schooling and "Hello" to SAF!

2005-07-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

Garang or Safety? Contradicting eh?

Brunei... here i come!!!

2005-07-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

Many many months has passed and i'm finally in my final lap of the OCC! Going brunei next week for my Jungle Confidence Course. Thinking back of the (crazy)things i've done, i must say i've grown to become a stronger man. Will be back with experiences to share... so stay tuned!

Was appointed Cadet Chief Safety by my PC. I mean, wtf?! Me again? Btw if you ppl dun noe, i hav been given appointment for almost every major exercise that we hav in training. Though e job scope(CCSO) is nothing much seriously, but if you screw it up.. be prepared to sign seven. -_-"

Many things have been going thru my mind for quite sometime. Starting to overwhelm me.. But i still find it hard to fully communicate it to anyone. Why am i behaving in this way? Hm...Think i shd start to pick up ZEN..haha~ as recommended by ling.

Starters!

2005-07-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

Am starting this new blog! Finally, have been thinking bout it for quite sometime...hee~