Reflections

Finally~ Safety Audit over. Pending the report from the auditor. Immediately was tasked to help out in the coming GCC. Feel like i need a break. After months of hard work, but now GCC? Worst! I'm the safety officer for almost all the activity. Couldn't even join them in their physical training! A sudden lost of direction. Don't know which direction am i heading. Why am i working so hard?

1 of the trainee, a captain, was hospitalised yesterday for physical exhaustion. I went over to hospital to link up with his parents while he was in A&E. To my relieved, he was alright. Was quite worried, as it was the first time i saw someone KO-ed after run. And he practically gone "INSANE". Doesn't know what he was doing, doesn't know what he was saying. The best part was, that after he regained his consciousness, he kept telling me that he felt wasted not to have completed the run as he was about 100m away from the end point and have got a very good timing.

Until i achieved that level of motivation, i guess i'll never attained a GOLD standard in my physical fitness test.

Nowadays, it seems to be a trend for me to lose friends. I missed my OCS mates. Have gone through thick and thin with them. And now everybody was busy with their work in their respective units. Called them up, and the reply was either they were the DO the next day, or they were staying in with their newly enlisted recruits. These trend includes females too! Apparently their boyfriend was kind of protective. So couldn't even meet up anymore. *sigh* Guess i'll drive around later in the night to find a peace and quiet place for self reflection...

Feel Good

These few weeks, life have never felt better! The focus was "WORK". Day in day out, i've been pushing people, both my subordinates and superior to prepare their stuff before the Safety Audit that is coming up. Rushing around from camp to camp, to submit documents, attend safety workshop and etc. I'm suddenly the SAFEST person in the whole of my battalion! Even after office hours, when i'm having dinner with my friends, my mind will still be thinking of the things i'm going to do the next day.

Maybe its the FEEL GOOD factor i'm after. To accomplish a task i'm assigned to do, to the best of my ability. As pointed out by my Dy, "last year, HR Audit get Band 1(95% and above), Logistics Audit also Band one.. how about Safety Audit?" These have set me worrying. What if the audit didn't turn out well? *Stressed* Well, remembering what my WINGCOMD always said, "although the results is important. But the process of attaining the result is even more crucial. To obtain the FEEL GOOD factor, we got to work hard, no matter what, to achieve what we set out to do. To be the best!" Pray that God would bless me with all the strength that i lack, the wisdom that i need, and the courage that i yearn to have, to pull through this BUSY time.

Did AOP and briefing on my 24km route march for the battalion. Can't believe my S2 was so "STRICT" in every single thing. He wanted my AI to be so detail, that i must specify which personnel sits in which vehicle. Kind of giving me a feeling that i'm planning for some major battalion exercise and that everything must be place on the AI. Good training, even did my briefing as if i'm giving OPS Order with all the Blown up map, AO Map around. Wow~ Good learning experience.

Also, i've been selected by my S1 to help him in the ushering of VIPs during NDP this year. Sector OIC for one of the Sector. haha~ my men? Some 20 SMU Students! HAha~ Can't get the firmed up numbers yet but its around there. Who knows i might meet up with my OCS instructor? Nah~ don't think after army they would want to join this kind of event.

I guess the only thing i missed out these few weeks was to get my fitness back. After work i'm so tired usually i'll be too lazy to exercise. Just swam at least 1km during the weekends every week to cover up the lost time. Which is not enough!!! Must start getting my butts of running before i fail my IPPT.